*For the last few weeks, I have been trying to figure out how to word this entry. I have already spent countless hours writing about my life on the spectrum and I couldn’t figure not figure out how to reword this entry to make it any better without stealing away from the original message. So if you were on my personal social media in April 2024, you have possibly already read this, but for those of you who were not around or just missed when I shared this, here is My Life on the Autism Spectrum (written in April 2024).
On the outside, it seems like I have my life put together. I have a loving family, amazing friends, good grades, etc. However, if I had to be honest, every day is not all rainbows and butterflies. I never seemed to be relaxed, as I am always worried about the future, even though I want to live in the present. Any loud noises overwhelm me, especially if they are chaotic or unexpected. I sometimes have a hard time finding the right words to say in certain situations, even if I know what I want to say. People my age do things that I don’t feel ready to do, even though society thinks I should be ready.
Although there are some rain clouds in my life, I would not trade it for the world. I have been blessed with a unique perspective on life that helps me understand people with disabilities better. Although the obstacles have made my life a little challenging, I have tried to focus on the present the best I can. I avoid loud noises when I can. I use alternative ways of communication when I have a hard time communicating. When I am worried about not being like everyone else, I think about how great my life is. Sure, I don’t drive a car, but I am excellent at riding a bike and using public transportation. I might not go to college parties, but you can find me rocking on my clarinet or taking my twin brother to sporting events. Yes, being on the Autism Spectrum has made my life different and challenging, but I would not have it any other way.
For people on the spectrum, Autism Acceptance Month is every month. I can’t speak for everyone on the spectrum, but I know for me, I just want people to accept me for who I am. I want people to understand that I might struggle with somethings that might be easy for others. I don’t want to have to wear a “mask” to fit in with society. I want to be able to myself… and I am so lucky that I have amazing family and friends that have been understanding and let me be my happy smiley self.
*Since this post, there has been a lot of press about Autism Spectrum Disorder and I do plan on addressing that in later posts, but I just wanted to get something out as I had not fully shared about my life on the spectrum on this part of my social media.
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